i don't think that am ready..

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

how u been guys?

lme x update blog nii.. hurmmm

today i nk story ckit bout relationship.. [LOVE]

I FOUND A GUY..

hes nice.. let we name it as Q..

I dono wht to say bout him..

i like him.. i do.. but i dont think tht im ready to have a serious relationship wit him..

bcos......... i dont think tht i believe in love..

pheeewww~ sshnye nk ckp!!!!

i just hope tht hes the one.. n i really2 hope tht he knows how to be an honest person..

perhaps dis "like" feeling is gonna turn to LOVE someday..

im trying to give him chance n me myself to love n care bout each other..

well.. sjk 2 mnjak 3 mnjak nii... i sgt2 busy..

n i rsau yg i akn TERLUPA psl Q..

i xrse yg i bole bg Q commitment [fully] if im officially declare 'in relationship' wit him..

so~ thts ol i guess..

TURTLE!

confusing~

assalamualaikum..

rini i nk story bout ma feeling yg confusing..

ermm.. wah!ber i u lk rini..haha!

kdg2, i xtao pe yg de dlm fkiran i..

kdg2, i rse rndu kt die, kdg2 xrse pape pon..

n kdg2 jgk i rse cm i syg kt die.. tp,

kdg2 i trus x pk lgsung psl die..

xtao la sme de i ni de feeling kt die ke x..

org ckp, ikut kte ati..

mslhnye i xtao pe ati i ckp..haha!

well, hes a very gud guy tht i ever met!

seriously guys!

tp.. tu la, i xtao laa.. ttnye2 pe kah yg de d dlm ati ku ini..

cewahh~ haha!

k la, bye!

YA ALLAH!!!!!

GOT HOT NEWS!!!!

SOMEBODY LIKES ME!

die bru je ngaku kat ak..

eh x..mse sem 1 pon die de ckp yg die ske kt ak..

tp ak cm cye x cye je..

ermmm... dugaan.. npe la bile kt xnk kn sesuatu, die mst dtg..(cinta)

tp, bile kt tol2 nk n ready tok bnde tuu, xd lk yg nk kn dri ni yg xbgtu cun n hot nii..
tp klu de pon, at last mst kecewa...haihh~ xtao la nk ckp..

sng cte kn, bile ak da kje, da de byk wit.. ak soh umi ak je yg crikn ak jdoh..haha!

cool what.. xpyh la nk bercinte bagai..
da la! aku mls la nk bkk cte psl laki nii.. xphm...
n mnykitkan ati... ermmm~

assalam...w.b.t~

.................????????

BISMILLAH...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t..

.....????? tu la yg de dlm kpale aku skrg ni... 

pd mulenye , aku da bjnji pd dri aku sndri yg aku xkn trime any guy after him( mr A)..

tp, slepas die muncul tnpe diduga.. pintu ati aku mula terbuka untuk die..

pd mulenye la kn, hes not a bf alike..

hes more to friend alike.. tp aku xtao how n when aku rse yg aku mula suka n decided tok go to the next

phrase ngn die.. iaitu mmpunyai hbgn "berlainan jenis" dgn die..
BUT... ni yg wt aku touching ckit nii..
:(((( slps pe yg die wt kt aku sblm nii.. ckp tu, ckp nii.. bg cincin..blablabla..

ttbe prubahan yg bgitu drastik trjdi pd die..

aku xtao la npe.. die ckp yg jdoh tu dtgn tuhan..

yes! tu mmg tol, ak x nafikan.. tp, xslh kn klu kt mncbe n brusha,tawakal n berdoa..
pastu, a few weeks after die bg cncin tu, die trus menyepikan dri shngge mbuatkn ak tertanya2.. ????

aku call die, die ckp yg die xnk cnte die pd sseorg mlebihi cnte die trhadap maha pencipta..

aku pon xsuruh die cntekn aku smpi die lpe kn yg MAHA ESA..

ak xphm!!! sgt2 xphm!!!!

nk tny, brat sgt t n mlut ni nk ckp..
at least, tny la kaba aku ke..sht x.. ni, jgn ktekan call,mcj pon xde....

bile aku on9, nmpk die on9.. die da x anta chat kt aku daa.. like status ak pon x.. amat trase ati..
sedih gile la.. ni yg aku xske nii.. ble da strt nk rse ske n syg, mst aku frust blk..
pdhal... ishh~ xtao laa... serik laaaa.. ermmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm~

love, trust, truth, lies= HEARTBROKEN

I was really tired of ol lies wit ol d hypocrisy so far... 

i felt hopeless n helpless to think bout other peep. peep tht i had love...

Now, im determined 2 open a new sheet n delete old memories tht always make me hurt n cry...
Now, ma heart is closed to any man...

i only bow 2  ALLAH. Let time decide everything... bcos, every time i open ma heart 2 someone, i will hurt n disappointed... perhaps i chose d wrong man... im just not aware of it... ermmmmm

 well, love hurts if we be wit d wrong person... its a damn big prob i guess..

i've chose wrong person... TWICE..its totally killing me inside..

imma brokenhearted girl.. i wanna let them go..

but, theres no perfect time.. sigh~

im struggling to let the past.. i wanna put ol memories n bittersweet time in a big box n i will burn it if im ready to do tht..i hope i will do tht soon or later!

i just wanna be epy.. n i wont let any guy to hurt me n take ma happiness away anymor!

i'll wait n see.. d wheel is spinning.. life is just like a rollercoster.. up n down..

its up to u how to deal wit it.. so, learn from mistakes..

n dont do d same mistake.. it will show how stupid u r.. lol~

its enough for me to write dis stupid expressions..

wanna grab ma dinner.. see! i still have desires to eat even im having heartbroken..

well..eat to live, live to eat! haha! i love tht quotes!

ok then, turtle!!!!!!!

trust no one!

bengang!!!!!! im not tht stupid la dude! sigh~ ssh tol nk trust ngn org zaman skg ni..ramai xssuai kot pki ramai.. byk bru ssuai cos byk is for binatang or bende.. not for human..kn.. STUPIDO!!!

benci laa.. sal la ak ni sng sgt cye kt org.. tol la ckp Mr. I.. ak ni mmg sng nk trust kt org,sng kne tpu..

ohh crap! stop thinking bout Mr. I la nisa!!!!erghh!!!

mulut je mns.. ckp tu la,ni la.. blablabla~ tp sume xley pkai!!!!

BENCI BENCI BENCI!!!!!! bukan tu je, da la die kte die syg aku, syok kt aku, @#$%^^^

tp npe la die nk tpu aku? xtdo ckp tdo.. pdhal bz dok on9.. 

loser~ nsb bek la blm decide nk bercintan cintun ngn die.. klu x,huh!

merana idop kot.. once or twice was enough! no more..

ee,mluat la! ble pk bnde2 yg die ckp kt ak!!!!!! i hope u read dis "HONEY"!

THANK YOU VERY MUCH for ur lies~

ishh.. da la, tls byk2 pon wt ak pk byk psl bnde tuu.. n lg wt ak skt t..

k, bye!

cinta

hidup tnpe cnte.. ley mati?

mungkin~

cnte ni de byk kategori..

yg ptame : CINTA KEPADA ALLAH~

http://www.angelfire.com/journal/suluk/kimia11.html

kedua : CINTA KPD IBU BAPA~

http://hafizfirdaus.com/ebook/Ayah_Ibu/ibubapa%20sunnah%201.htm

ketiga : CINTA KPD DIRI SENDIRI~

http://www.sabah.org.my/bm/nasihat/artikel_remaja/cinta_diri_sendiri.asp

keempat : CINTA KEPADA INSAN BERLAINAN JANTINA (KEKASIH)

http://www.hanan.com.my/print.php?sid=1290

CINTA KERANA NAFSU HANYA AKAN MEMBAWA PADAH DAN SERIBU PENYESALAN~

klu nk bcnte tu, plihla org yg bley mnjamin kbahagian diri di dnia dan d akhirat~

(NASIHAT UNTUK DIRI SENDIRI JUGAK)

smua org berhak tuk mncintai dan dcintai...

cinte sjati??

WUJUD KE???

org yg pnh mngalami je yg tao wjud ke x~

ak pon da xtao nk tlis pe g..

tlis pnjg2 pon cm la de org bce ark..heee

k, assalam~

sedih ke?

hurm.. lame gile kot ak x bkk blog ak nii.. da brabok da~ heee.. 

erm, ak xtao la npe ak gse sdey sgt pas bkk fb~ sbb?? ak pon xtao..

 i was crying without knowing d reason.. SIGH~ 

kn bez klu kt ley epy for eva n eva.. 

plus, klu la kt ley pdam memori yg kt xnk igt..

mst bez gle n kt xkn sdey ble igt memori uhh.. kn?

but its so ridiculous! hmmmm

2days ago.. i was dreaming,

im wearing telekung, nangis2 smbil mnx maaf ngn sume fam ak..

wht does it mean???

ak ngn fam ak saling mnx maaf..

soOoO freak!

and a day after, ak mmp umi ak mninggal!!!!

NAUZUBILLAH~

tp org kte klu kt mmp cm tu mksdnye pnjg umo~

INSYAALLAH, AMIN~

i love her very much!!!!

--> june 9

--> 1525

--> in ma bed

me is me

heyy! ak nk ckp smthng nii.. ak xske tol la klu de org yg ske sgt mgikut cre ak.. anythg.. cre ak bpkaian, cre ak ckp, brand pe yg ak pkai.. n mcm2 g r.. ak de membe kt klj nii.. ak tgk, ap yg ak wt,sume die nk wt.. pe yg ak pki, sume die nk pki.. cmpai nk pnjm bju ak bgai.. aiyoO~~ n i da kes berat nii.. bkn nk ckp ak ni kdkot ke pe..tp,cmmon la wehh.. klu nk bgye skli pon, gne la brg sndri.. ni x.. nk g kls pon nk pki ksot ak.. haihh.. ak nk ckp ngn die, tp tkot die xley trime lk ann.. cian pon de gk..ermm.. ak rse die ni cm MONKEY SEE, MONKEY DO.. ermm.. dr lua cmpy la ke alam siber.. dok ikot cre ak..huh! XSKE XSKE XSKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hrp 1 day t die sdr r yg pe die wt uhh leh wt org ktok n mngte die..cm ak nga wt skg ni..haha! tp ak ckp bnde tol r kn.. t ak nk cri time yg ssuai r tok tgor die psl nii.. k r guys, ROGER!

~~1 LOVE~~